Monday, May 28, 2012

Did Ya Miss Me?

I know how you must all be feeling -  abandoned, betrayed, confused and disillusioned, and believe it or not, I didn't even TRY to alphabetise that!

No, I know what you must be thinking - he just up and left! No warning. No Terminator-esque "I'll be back". Just one minute he's blogging about his classroom and the next he has vanished.

Where did he go?

Well, I'll be honest, I didn't really go anywhere but life has taken a dramatic turn over the last few months.

First, I got engaged (Yay!). My beautiful fiancĂ©, Alanna has agreed to be my wife and I feel fully, completely blessed to have her by my side. Which brings me to...

Secondly, she has flown home to Canada. To make a long and complicated and frustrating story short, we agreed that, professionally and financially, it made a lot more sense for her to go home and establish herself while I continued to finish the school year here, collecting my salary and maintaining a good rapport with the school, until December. Then I go home to be with her again.

For that to happen, the last while has been a whirlwind of packing, purging, selling, and donating. As she moved, I moved. My living conditions have been reduced from a two bedroom apartment to renting a room, from living with the woman I want to hold forever to living with a guy get the point.

According to the calendar, it has been 29 days since she flew home. Leading up to it, I was confident that we would be able to real with it all and it would be over before we knew it. The moments leading up to her having to step through the "Passengers Only" barrier were impossibly emotional. 235 days without my Lanny. I proceeded to dissolve into a hysteric mess. I'm glad none of you saw me. It was pretty embarrassing. It hasn't felt like 29 days - more like 229. Too often, I've thought about packing up early but haven't. It isn't getting any easier, either. But I have to just keep plugging away.

So here I am, plugging away.

So this isn't a "check this out" post or a "this, you gotta try" post. It's a "sorry about the absence" kinda post, a "no hard feelings, right?" kinda post.

So, yeah. No hard feelings?


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